Veil and a broken heart...

I feel as though I have neglected my blog. Four children on spring break isn't pretty..It is pure chaos to say the least! Oh well, the planning must go on!
I am 39 days away from being a Mrs!! The sad part is that the reception isn't until September so this is the equivalent of planning two weddings.

In a recent post, I showed pictures of DIY hair for our wedding. This is seriously stressing me out. I am so worried that my nerves will be so bad, I may not be able to pull it off. IDEA...HIDE IT! Ok, not all of it but I need a veil. I started a quest for the perfect veil.
One that has vintage appeal but the ability to hide hair flaws (if any). I also had to find something that would work with my dress.

Oh Etsy, how I love you!
I found the PERFECT veil that fits my style 100%, not to mention it can hide any hair flaws I may make.

Isn't she LOVELY! It is being custom made in ivory as I type. Vintage and chic. Even BETTER, it looks GREAT with the hair down so its a safe option for me..PHEW!!
Thank you Claudia's Unique Boutique!

Whats the broken heart you ask?
Yesterday my MOH called me, she is also my Cousin. She said I need to call my Brother and it was important..
I called him. He informed me he had enlisted into the Air Force. I lost it. My baby brother turned 21 today.
I am NOT against it by any means, I am just a selfish sister. Our other Brother was in the Air Force for 4 years after 9/11. He made me very proud..but this is my BABY brother, it's different.
I understand why he wants to go and I commend him for making this choice at 21. He wants something out of life. He wants a career. Something very few people in our family have.
He wants to become a police officer and without a degree, it just doesnt happen anymore. His goal is to be in the Military Police and eventually work on the K9 unit in Dallas. I am still a selfish Sister and dont want him leaving ME!! He said he will do everything and anything  to make my wedding ( cries )
Another low blow...
I have a strained relationship with my Mom. Long story. Anyways, my Brother said I should call her because as of now..it doesn't look like her or my Step Dad will be going to my wedding. Unreal. I shouldn't be surprised by this, but I was. I know her and I have some issues. The fact she cant set them aside for once..ahh just forget it! It's her choice.

I was nothing but tears yesterday because of all this news. Today I am a bit better but my heart still aches.
I am going to miss my Brother so so so much. I hate being a selfish Sister.